Remember how I said that I was going to stay positive about our fertility issues? I’m failing miserably and it’s only January 4. I don’t think I’ve discussed this before, but I’ve been charting my way to insanity for the past 6 months. I only started charting after being advised to by my Arizona RE. I felt really good about this month’s chart until about 3 days ago. My temperatures have been consistently dropping which means AF is most likely on her way. When I took my temperature this morning and saw the huge drop, I completely lost it. We only get (maybe) 1 more shot at this naturally before the deployment.
I mentioned before that my husband was a little wary on the whole freezing sperm for IUI thing but I told him that we’ve been on this journey for so long and I don’t want to stop. He told me that if it’s what I really wanted, then he would do it for me. I’m so glad that he’s being so supportive even though I know I’ve been acting crazy – especially this month. I guess I’m holding out a little bit of hope for a positive test this cycle, but if and when AF shows, I’ll be on the phone to Dr. P. to figure out what to do next.
I guess I have to keep telling myself to stay positive. I want 2011 to be the year we finally get to bring home our baby. I hope I can remain strong enough while he’s gone.
*Update* – As predicted, AF showed up a few hours ago. Temperatures don’t lie. I put a phone call into the RE to see what he wants me to do next. I hope I get a call back from his nurse before the work day is over with. Hopefully he has an idea on how to move up my ovulation date a bit. Cycle day 19 did not work out good when this cycle only lasted 28 days. Ugh.