Monthly Archives: September 2011

IUI #4 complete!

My last update about IUI #4 was about 10 days ago. Oops! Well last Wednesday I went back into Dr. P’s for another ultrasound and blood draw. We saw that I had 3 good sized follies – an 11, 14, and 16. My estradiol level had also increased from 27 to 60. Dr. P. decided that we would increase my G.onal dosage from 75 IUs to 150 IUs on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Since I already gave myself my daily injection that morning, I had to double up when I got home. The plan was to trigger on Saturday and have the IUI done on Monday morning.

I was very worried that E wouldn’t make it home in time for IUI #4, because his first flight got cancelled. Thankfully, I received a phone call from him on Saturday morning because he was finally in the U.S.! I triggered on Saturday night around 10:00 and we had the IUI done yesterday morning around 11:00! I start the E.ndometrin today – we’re upping the dosage from 100 mg/day to 200 mg/day. I’ve already started to feel some crazy ovary pain, so I’m trying to take it easy.
I’ll try my hardest to hold off on testing until next weekend. There are no pee sticks in the house to tempt me (at the moment).

Milspouse Friday Fill-In

It’s been a few weeks since I participated in the Milspouse Friday Fill-In. I’ve been busy getting the house ready for E to come home for his R&R and the fall quarter has finally begun. I’ll have to write a blog post later on our IUI progress and the new quarter, but for now, I’ll just answer this week’s questions. Head over to Wifey’s blog to link up your blog!

1. My favorite thing that happened this week was being given the go ahead to trigger this weekend for IUI #4! It’s our last shot before IVF in the spring, so please send some extra prayers and good thoughts our way.

2. Find a penny, pick it up and all day you’ll have good luck as long as it was heads-up when you found it.

3. Autumn is officially here and my favorite part of the season is baking treats with pumpkin. I’m making pumpkin chocolate chip bars tonight, so I’ll be sure to write up a blog post to share the recipe and some pictures! I also love the slightly cooler weather, the fact that it’s football season again, leaves changing, the holidays, and drinking hot chocolate from S.tarbucks. I love fall!

4. One of the things I’d like to do before winter arrives is enclose our screened in porch. I would love to make it an all seasons porch.

5. I (would/would not/might) be willing to participate in Milspouse Secret Santa. I would definitely be interested in participating in Milspouse Secret Santa!

Pinterest fun

So I may be addicted to Pinterest (definitely addicted). I thought I would dedicate a post to some of the recipes that I would like to try out when E is home for R&R. I absolutely love cooking and baking and am looking forward to cooking for 2 and baking up some goodies while he’s here for a short time.

Pumpkin chocolate chip brownies – I love, love, love baked goods with pumpkin in it. I’ll have to change up a few ingredients to make the recipe gluten free, so I’m hoping they turn out good.
Cream cheese pumpkin bread – Pumpkin + cream cheese. Can it get any better?
Hot spinach and artichoke dip – This will be great with some chips and NFL football.
BLTA and butternut and acorn squash soup – We love our soup and sandwich nights around here!
Asparagus, pea, and saffron risotto – I’ve never made risotto before, but I’d love to try it out.

What are some of your favorite recipes you’ve found on Pinterest?

IUI #4

I guess I haven’t really written a blog post about IUI #4, so here it is.

I’m currently on CD 19 and the 17th day of injections. My last RE appointment was on Friday morning and there were only 2, 11mm follicles – one on the left and one on the right. My estradiol level was at 27, which was lower than Monday’s level of 39. Normally, I’d be anxious to get things moving along, but since this cycle is depending solely on Evan being home on R&R (since we no longer have any frozen), I’m glad that things are fairly quiet. I’ll be going back to Dr. P. for another ultrasound and blood draw bright and early on Wednesday morning. Nurse D mentioned that we might have to start bumping up my dosage if things aren’t really progressing along by Wednesday. This is definitely fine by me because I really don’t want to do 30 days of injections this time around. My stomach is already bruised and I’m running out of places to stick myself.
I’m kind of indifferent about this cycle. I’m trying not to stress out about it too much. I’ll probably start getting antsy in the two week wait – as usual.
In other news – this is a fairly low-key weekend. Last night I went out with a group of friends to celebrate my good friend, Belinda’s birthday. Today I put out some of my fall decorations, cleaned the guest bedrooms, and enjoyed a hot chocolate from Starbucks. The weather is in the mid-60’s – definitely a nice break from the 90 degree weather we’ve been having. It felt great to pull out my corduroy pants and a light-weight long-sleeved shirt this morning. I’m definitely looking forward to some more fall weather!
I’m enjoying my last weekend of graduate school freedom. I start the fall quarter on Monday and will be taking 3 classes again. My classes seem interesting and I’m hoping that I enjoy them more than last quarter’s classes. I can’t believe I only have 6 classes to go. I’m already in the process of applying for student teaching and will be starting that on March 19th. I hope to teach either kindergarten or first grade, so keep your fingers crossed for me!
Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend so far! I’m looking forward to watching some NFL football tomorrow. Go Eagles!

An analogy to think about

I came across this analogy posted on Erika’s blog and I thought that it applied to my situation perfectly. I hope it touches you as much as it touched me when I read it tonight.

Imagine yourself dressed up in your finest clothes. You and your sweet husband are attending a dinner together in one of the nicest restaurants in town. You both have planned, waited and saved for this evening. To say the least, you are very excited! You and your husband arrive and the atmosphere is more than you expected. Everyone around you is having a good time. The chandeliers are sparkling, candles are glowing and sweet soft music is playing in the background. To your pleasant surprise you see others there you know. You are seated with them and in your heart you think there just couldn’t be anything better!

The table is just exquisite. Breathtaking really. The people at your table begin to talk to you in jolly conversation. You glance at the menu and you don’t even know where to begin! You look over everything slowly and carefully, especially the dessert menu! All of your life you have been hearing about this restaurant’s marvellous and divine desserts. Deep in your heart, you have been looking forward to enjoying dessert the most!

Everyone at your table orders their food. For dessert they all order chocolate cake. You think, “Hey that sounds perfect. I’ll have chocolate cake too please.”

The waiter nods in approval and quickly swifts off to put in your order. In the meantime, you are still enjoying the surroundings, the music and the company. You grab your husband’s hand and sigh “Yes, life just couldn’t get any better.”

The food comes and everything looks just pleasing. Some of the things you tasted you really love, some of the things you didn’t. Either way, you know that dessert is on its way. That thought in and of itself is just exciting! Then you see him, your waiter! Your wonderful, blessed waiter with a silver tray full of plates of chocolate cake! He comes and starts handing out plates to those you know. You look at the cake and to put it simply, it looks just divine. You’re even more excited now! The waiter comes to your side and then passes you and your husband. You are shocked and think there must be some mistake. you don’t know what to do, but rather than make a fuss you think, “Just wait, I will get my chocolate cake soon too.”

Those that have their dessert are going on and on about how amazing the taste is. You smile, you are truly happy for them. Deep down you are anxious and their feelings only feed your curiosity and desire. Then you see the waiter again and think, “Ahhh, here he is.” You notice that he starts handing out seconds and thirds to those that have already had their piece of cake. Your husband doesn’t notice, he’s busy chatting with the fellow next to him! Deep down though you get a sick feeling in the pit of your stomach. You know something is wrong, something is very, very wrong.

You ask the waiter, “Excuse me please. Where is my chocolate cake that I ordered”? The waiter just replies, “The baker has said that you must wait.” He rushes off and not another word is said. Time goes on. You still enjoy the surroundings, the people and the conversations. All the while though, you can’t get chocolate cake out of your mind. Time keeps creeping by and soon your husband notices too, “Where is our dessert?” You hold his hand and look into his loving eyes and think, “Even without chocolate cake, life is still good.”

Time, however, creeps and it creeps. At moments it seems like it has even stopped. It’s getting late and people are noticing you haven’t received your dessert yet. Questions start arising and you just don’t know how to respond. You look around other tables and notice that people are also getting their third, fourth and fifth servings of dessert. “Why” is all you have to lean upon.

You notice that others have ordered things for dessert besides chocolate cake. There is cherry pie, brownie ice cream sundaes, raspberry cheesecakes and such. They seem just as pleased, if not more pleased with their desserts and you wonder, “Should I order cherry pie too”? You talk to the waiter and he simply says, “I’m sorry ma’am, you just need to be patient and wait.”

You are starting to burn inside. Despite all of your best efforts you are beginning to boil. You really want to jump on top of the table and stomp while shouting, “Where is my chocolate cake?” You don’t though because you know that will get you no where! Instead you look around and notice that there are some that are refusing their chocolate cake. “It will make me fat” one says. “Ugh. I have enough already” another states. One woman, simply dumps her beautiful chocolate cake onto the floor.

As you look deeper around you, you notice there are a few others that are waiting too. Your heart goes out to them. You smile and wish there was something more you could do. You know their pain and it hurts. It really hurts.

Finally, the waiter comes and he has chocolate cake on that familiar beautiful silver platter…and he has enough for two. One for your husband and one for you! Your so elated with joy that you can’t hardly stand it!!! You tell everyone at your table and they are just as happy for you. “We knew it would happen” they say. “You just needed to relax”! Little did they know that deep inside relaxing was the last thing you were feeling! You look at your husband. Tears are in both of your eyes. You carefully take a taste. It’s such sweet, sweet perfection. You go to take another and just before you do the waiter comes and gently takes your plates away. “Something is wrong” he says. “Don’t worry my dear, the time is soon.”

There’s confusion. Sadness. Anger. Above all though, you are just deeply and truly heartbroken. Heartbroken to the very core. You don’t know what to do. You turn to others for support. They cry with you and too ask why. You take a deep breath and find the strength to go on. You have been given the promise that you will receive dessert. It is just not understood as to when. You decide to put your full trust in the baker. You reach far inside within yourself and find the effort to ask your husband to dance.

He looks at you and smiles…”Yes, I would love to dance with you my dear one.” You both get up, leave the table and set off to dance.

As you are dancing, you get your bearings. You again begin to notice your surroundings. The beautiful surroundings that have so magically grabbed your attention in the first place. You remember the music, the sounds, the smell of the sweet flowers. You breath. That’s all you can do. You breath and slowly begin to enjoy the moment again. Slowly, it all comes back to you. The things you love. Being with the person you love the most. The pains you have just felt are still there. Still vulnerable, but you feel life again. Yes, life is still good.

After quite a few dances, you both decide it’s time to sit at your table. People still have their desserts and their chocolate cakes. Your space is still empty. You decide, however, to really focus on those around you. In doing so you find more joy. The desire for dessert is still there- but it’s manageable. Time moves on.

Then suddenly, out of nowhere, your waiter appears. He has the biggest smile on his face. He is pleased to announce that you and your husband’s dessert is finally here!! Your heart wells up with joy, but you’re afraid too. You ask the waiter, “Will you take it away”? “No, this one was made especially for you.”

You smile back, hardly believing that this could be true or real. You look at it and it’s not a dessert you have ever seen before. It’s then that you realize that the baker has made a dessert with all of your favorite colors and flavors. Careful detail was lovingly taken into every consideration. “How did He know that this is exactly what I wanted”? The waiter just smiles and says, “Because he knows and loves you.” If you look, you can see him there. You look and at the door, through the little round window you see a gentle man with tears in his eyes. He is grinning from ear to ear and looking at you and your husband. You can’t hardly see anymore because of all of the happy tears. You whisper a big “Thank You” and in your heart you feel that this simple phrase will never be enough.

You look at the people around you, they too have tears in their eyes. They too are smiling from ear to ear. Everything is so precious and tender now- even more so than when you first arrived here. It’s then that you learn that the pains you have felt all along the way. The waiting, the crying, the agony. It’s all been a special recipe to make this moment this much more wonderful and sacred.

In your soul you take a deep breath and slowly let out a big sigh of gratitude.

You grab your husband’s hand and sigh again, “Yes, life just couldn’t get any better.”

Baby shower and other weekend happenings

First off, I never want to see the inside of my car for more than an hour at a time for awhile. From Thursday through Sunday, I spent about 20 hours in the car driving back and forth between here and PA and then to and from various friends’ houses while I was back home. Even though the driving was a pain in the rear, I had a fabulous weekend. Driving for 8 hours on Thursday gave me time to mentally prepare for what I was going to face while I was up there.

I had a chance to visit one of my college roommates and meet her daughter, Emily, for the first time. Emily was such a cute, chubby, and happy 8 month old! She was such a joy to be around. I also got to play with Luke, Emily’s big brother. My friend and I caught up with what has been happening over the past few months and entertained the kids together for a few hours. After hanging out at their house, I headed back towards my parents’ house and stopped to visit one of my high school friends who had just given birth to her first son, Giovanni, about 3 and half weeks ago. What an adorable little baby he was! I was able to hold him for about 15 minutes until he started to get a little fussy. He just wanted his mommy 🙂 We had a good time reminiscing about the high school days (can’t believe we graduated over 11 years ago) and talked about what’s been going on more recently.
Friday evening, I got to see some other friends from high school. We met up at a local Mexican restaurant and I splurged on some ice cream for dessert since I had already eaten dinner with my parents. One of my friends is due at the beginning of January and this was the first time I saw her in person. Even though I did have those twinges of jealousy and sadness, I was also happy and excited for her. I felt the same way the whole weekend actually – slightly jealous and sad over what I don’t have, but happy for the babies that have been born already and will be born soon.
Next up on Saturday was my BFF’s baby shower. Her sister, mother, and I set up the house early since BFF decided she wanted to show up before her guests. What a brat! 🙂 The decor was awesome, everyone loved the favors, the food was amazing, and BFF scored a lot of great baby stuff. Once the nursery furniture arrives, she will be set for the arrival of baby Angela. She’s due very close to Thanksgiving so unfortunately I won’t be able to meet baby Angela until right before Christmas. I’m pretty sure I finish up my fall quarter on December 10th, so I’m going to try and work out a time to go visit them before heading to the parents and the in-laws for Christmas. I’ll leave you all with some pictures from the big day. Enjoy!

(guest book table)

(more cute decor)

(baby onesie banner)

(favor table)

(present time!)

(more presents)

(cutting the cake)

(high school friends)

(another group shot before the party started to wind down)

(BFF, her mom, and sister)