Monthly Archives: August 2012

Transfer Day

Yesterday was full of highs and lows. My transfer wasn’t scheduled until 2pm, so I decided to take the morning to run errands and start in-processing for my new job as a substitute teacher for the on-post school district (another post for another time).

E left work at lunchtime and we left for the clinic around 1:30. My RE and nurse were running late, so I made myself comfortable on the couch and sipped my water to ensure that my bladder was nice and full for the upcoming transfer.

Once my nurse showed up, she walked E and I to the conference room and told us that Dr. P. would be in shortly to review the thaw report and have us sign some paperwork for the FET. She placed our chart upside-down on the table, closed the door, and left us alone.

Of course I couldn’t wait until Dr. P. came in to find out about our embryos, so I swiped the chart off the table and flipped it over. My heart sank. They had to thaw all 6 embryos in order to get 2 for our transfer. I immediately started crying. I kept thinking, “If this doesn’t work, we don’t have any embryos left for another round.”

I tried to compose myself the best that I could, but immediately started crying once Dr. P. walked into the room. He asked if I had looked at the chart and I shamefully nodded my head. I asked him what had happened and he explained that the 4 lost embryos weren’t dividing as they should. He did show me pictures of our 2 snowbabies that would be transferred and reassured me that they looked great. This made me feel a little better, but I was still processing the loss of our other 4.

Next, I walked into the transfer room and got a booster shot of H.CG before the transfer. My nurse did an ultrasound on my stomach to ensure that I had a full bladder and pointed out the catheter that was being inserted for the transfer. The embryologist came into the room to verify my name and how many embryos were being transferred. Once the information was verified, Dr. P. transferred our snowbabies and I watched them deposit into my uterus on the ultrasound screen.

After laying down for 20 minutes, I got dressed and we headed home. I’ve been on bed rest since the transfer, but will be coming off of it tomorrow.

I’m sad about our losses, but hopeful that these 2 snowbabies will become our miracle babies. These 2 survived for a reason, right? They’re fighters. I don’t ask for prayers often, but whatever you can spare would be greatly appreciated.

My first beta is scheduled for next Friday, so we don’t have to wait too long to find out if this worked. We’ll see what happens.


Another FET update

An FET cycle is definitely not as “exciting” as an IVF cycle; therefore, my updates have been a little more scattered and brief.

Here’s what I have for you – I went in for my final monitoring appointment yesterday morning and Nurse D told me that my lining looked “perfect” and that we’re definitely on track for our transfer next Tuesday.

My E2 levels are right where they need to be and my Vitamin D levels came back within range. For once I passed a test! Go me 🙂 No weekly supplements required.

Yesterday I upped my dosage of E.strace from twice a day to three times a day. Let me tell you, this medicine is making me SO nauseous. If I wasn’t cycling, I would swear that I was pregnant. Brings me back to the days of my first pregnancy. Once I eat lunch, I feel terrible for the rest of the day. I don’t know what’s up, but I’m sure it’ll only get worse once I start adding in E.ndometrin three times a day starting on Friday morning. Also, the antibiotic is not helping matters either. Good thing I only have a week of that to go.

So here’s what’s up for the rest of the week:

  • Last L.upron shot on Thursday morning (Yay!! – I’m running out of spots on my stomach
  • Trigger shot (done by E) at 9 PM Thursday evening 
  • Add in E.ndometrin and M.edrol on Friday 

We’re still not sure what time the transfer will be on Tuesday, but we should have a better idea of the schedule on Friday afternoon. I’m ready for those embies – I hope my body is.

FET #1 Update

I’m about 2 weeks into my first FET cycle and have been into see Dr. P. for 3 monitoring appointments so far. The daily L.upron shots continue and I’m up to taking 9 pills a day. So far, so good. The oves are quiet and my lining is working it’s way up to where it needs to be for our transfer on the 21st.

My only complaint about this cycle is the massive amounts of bruising on my stomach from the L.upron injections. Some days it’s very hard to get the needle through the skin. I blame this partly on the fact that I’ve done so many injectible cycles. I know the skin on my arms get tough due to all the blood draws, so I can’t imagine what 12-30 days of injections per cycle over the past year and a half have done to the skin on my stomach. Thankfully, I only have 10 more days of L.upron injections. The end is near!

When I was getting my blood drawn today, I noticed that there were 3 vials in my bag as opposed to the typical 2. I asked Nurse N what the third vial was for. I wouldn’t be me without asking a million and one questions. She told me that they were testing everyone’s vitamin D levels, because Dr. P went to a conference that showed a link between vitamin D deficiency and infertility. If my levels come back lower than where they need to be, then I’ll add in a weekly supplement to help boost my levels. Honestly, I wouldn’t be shocked if my levels were low. At this point, I’m willing to try everything and anything if it will help me conceive.

Right now, I’m waiting on the phone call from Nurse D to find out when my next appointment will be and what the results of my blood tests are. My lining was at a 3 and I still have 2 weeks to go before transfer, so hopefully it thickens up nicely.

I have another blog post to write about my weekend, but that will have to wait until later!

25 Things About Me

The majority of my blog posts have dealt with infertility and loss, so I thought it would be a fun and a good change of pace to write about some things that you might not know about me already. 25 seemed like a good number, so here are 25 things about me. 

1. I have one younger brother who is only 11 months younger than I am. For 6 days, we’re the same age. This always used to bother me when I was younger. Unfortunately, due to a falling out, I haven’t talked to my brother in 11 years. 
2. My first surgery occurred when I was 6 years old to remove non-cancerous cysts and moles. I had 3 other surgeries for the same reason before the age of 13. 
3. I’m allergic to stitches. 
4. I have a red birthmark covering my entire left arm and left hand. It’s really extra blood vessels, but it’s easier to tell people that it’s a birthmark. I used to be embarrassed about it when I was younger, but I can’t imagine not having it. Removing it would be a very costly, painful, and long process, so it’s staying put. 
5. I started first grade when I was only 5 years old. I told my mom that I didn’t want to go to kindergarten because that’s where the babies went and I wasn’t a baby. I was a very headstrong and stubborn child. 
6. I was a DJ on my college radio station with my roommate for 3 years. We started off with a 5:30 AM time slot, but eventually scored a prime Sunday afternoon time slot. We played a lot of emo, punk, and alternative music. 
7. I have seen over 200 bands in concert. This is partly due to the fact that DJs got free tickets to local shows. 
8. My dad took me to my first concert when I was 14. We saw Third Eye Blind on the campus of Temple University. 
9. I played on 3 basketball teams during my freshman year of high school. I hated playing with girls, so I dropped the school team when I was a sophomore and only played on 2 boys teams. I miss playing team sports. 
10. I’ve known my best friend for 16 years. We met on the first day of high school back in 1996.
11. I have known E for 11 years. We met during my freshman year of college when he was home for leave from the Army. Shortly after we met, he deployed to Kosovo. 
12. When I was younger,  I had many career aspirations. I wanted to be a teacher, marine biologist, NICU nurse, and a writer. 
13. When I was in elementary school, I used to write short stories. I was the author and my brother was the illustrator. I would love to write children’s books some day. 
14. I always wanted to act when I was in high school. Unfortunately, I couldn’t muster up enough courage to try out for any of the plays. 
15. I don’t like to swim in bodies of water where I can’t see the bottom. I also tend to avoid the ocean because I’m scared of jellyfish. 
16. I swam with dolphins twice. Once in Florida and once in the Bahamas. I would love to swim with them again. Such amazing and intelligent creatures. 
17. I will be a lifelong student. I want to get my specialist degree in order to become a reading specialist and then would love to pursue my Ph.D. in education. 
18. I had cellulitis in my face back in 2007. Probably the most pain I’ve ever felt in my whole life. 
19. I would love to live overseas at least once before E retires from the military. Germany is at the top of our list. 
20. I’m allergic to so many medicines that I have a red sticker on my medical records at the hospital. 
21. I’ve never met my mom’s side of the family. I have an aunt, uncle, and 8 cousins that I will probably never meet. 
22. E and I went on a 3 week European adventure after his first deployment. We visited France, Switzerland, Italy, Greece, and Turkey. 
23. I hate coffee. Can’t even stand the smell of it. 
24. I’ve never smoked a cigarette in my life. 
25. I eat the same lunch almost every day. Turkey and cheese wrap with avocado and a side of fruit. I’m a very picky eater. 
So there’s my list! Tell me something I may not know about you.